Wine.

Do you ever rejoice at the prospect of a long weekend, relax, enjoy yourself, then go back to work and feel like the short week is the LONGEST work week of your ENTIRE life?

That happened to me last week. I hate that.

Valentine's Day ended up consisting of a romantic dinner:

And this:

The rest of the long weekend was food and drinks by the water at Guanabanas with Ben and Kristin, and laying by the pool reading the Amber Chronicles. Go read it if you like trippy fantasy stories that transport you to different worlds.

Tuesday was a volunteer work/staff meeting day, so it was really like I only worked three days in the school, but it felt like an eternity. I woke up at 3:30am every morning and could not go back to sleep. My brain would not. shut. up.

Anxiety is at an all-time high. I am honestly surprised I did not have my first panic attack in almost two years this week. But I guess that's a good thing: If I survived this week without having one, maybe I can survive anything...?

Yes. We'll go with that.

I think I just have a lot going on right now. Work is overwhelming. I have so much to do before Spring Break. I don't even want to talk about it.

Baby shower planning is so exciting but really stressful. I am going to be damn proud of myself when it all comes together. It is an Alice in Wonderland theme, which is perfect, because I got to write "RSVP to Lauren or IT'S OFF WITH YOUR HEAD!" on the invitations... muahahaha. For those of you who are unaware, I am the Evil Queen, and it has been my dream in life to tell people OFF WITH YOUR HEAD. I've gotten many compliments on the invitations already, which is awesome, since Eric designed them!

Eric and I have also been REALLY getting to it with the wedding planning. We did an especially grown-up thing today: set up a registry! This sounded like a huge chore to me, so I have been putting it off, because who really cares about fine china? Not me. But I discovered I actually DO like looking at plates, and blenders, and waffle makers, and even vacuum cleaners. I think I actually just like to scan things. We were having a little too much fun with the scan gun...

There we are, in front of the wine gadgets. Typical.

I think we'll just leave it at that for now. My life has basically been lots of stress, some bad, but some good, paired with lots of wine.

Don't judge me.